Fifteen revisited, because I can.

1. You always seem to make the party complete. There have been some close calls between us before, but never anything that I’d ever really thought might come between us in the long run. You always know what I’m thinking it seems, and I usually think I have a pretty good grasp on what’s running through your mind too. We’ve had a pretty physically relationship, but it hasn’t been without its emotional side too. We have our little games we play, you know what I’m talking about. It’s weird because, even though you mean so much to me, I’ve had no problem with my friends getting close to you too. I guess what I’m trying to say is just that I’m glad you’re in my life, and I’m thankful for this connection we have that reaches further than our gender and further than friendship. I really hope nothing happens to us, or to change what we have. Stay classy, my glass and metal friend.

2. Right out there on the cusp. Again, such a weird connection, but one that I would never want to relinquish. I always have the best time (the BEST time) when we’re together. Enough said.

3. Things get pretty fucked up sometimes, and nobody can deny it. It happens. But when it does, I’m glad we can just take a day and talk about how laid back we are.

4. Life isn’t serious at all, so when we talked, it really shouldn’t have been awkward. But for the most part, it was. I don’t know what that means, if anything at all. I wish things would have been different.

5. My first impression of you, a ways back now, was wrong. I thought you were kind of an asshole. But I was wrong. I like you. You’re a really cool person. Your sense of humour makes me smile. And for some good reason (probably booze) we can really talk.

6. I’ve known you over a year now and I’ve just liked you more and more as time marched on. You’re a really good person. You’re good people. I do like you, a lot actually, and that’s kind of odd it seems. I mean, if anything was gonna happen it should have happened by now. But it’s still here, for me at least, and it’s weird. We’re just both in weird places. I don’t know what to think or do with you, angel.

7. I wish I had a clone of me that could just live out all the guilty feelings I have when I myself can’t act on the feelings I pick up from other people. You’re one of these people. You deserve to be happy, truly, but I just don’t feel it. It hurts me to have hurt you, if I did indeed.

8. I don’t know how to read you or your counterpart. You’re a much more complex being than I thought originally. Not so much more complicated, but I just have a harder time reading you than a lot of people. I’m glad we talked.

9. You. You… wow. I don’t know who you are. Sometimes you seem innocent; sometimes you seem scary in said innocence. I don’t know how you read.

10. The cutest thing in the whole world. The WHOLE world.

11. You’ve changed somewhat. It’s not a huge change in your personality or anything from last year, my friend, but it seems those in your life have entered ours through your connection to us. And while sometimes it’s welcome, sometimes it’s far too much.

12. Fucking monkey-with-symbols-on-crack when you’re high. Holy shit. I’m gonna need you to shut up at a certain point, as do others. Other than that, no qualms.

13. You shouldn’t be here. I’m not the judge, mind you, but for your own sake, you should probably try to find somewhere else to fit in. There’s a whole flurry of things that make you not welcome. Sometimes you smell like snack food, that’s pretty gross. I’m not a mean person for saying these things, I’m an honest person. If anybody wants to hate me, hate me for that.

14. You shouldn’t be here. I’m not the judge, mind you, but for your own sake, you should probably try to find somewhere else to fit in. You’ve a long way to go until people will ever accept you, and the only person that can make that REQUIRED change, is you.

15. Last, but certainly not least, you’ve always inspired me. I’ve never so much wanted to be like you, but I’ve admired qualities in yourself that really, as far as I’m concerned, make a man a man. Sometimes you can be two-sided, but I’ll always like you for you, whichever side you wanna play that day. Whenever it seems like you’d be stuck, you always find a solution, and I aspire to be able to do that. Aside from the actual good qualities that you possess, you’re just, flat out, the coolest guy in the world. You’re dark and mysterious, but comforting and caring. You are my dark knight.

Compared to the last 15 thing I did, there’s only two of those people on this 15er. They’re both guy friends of mine. Otherwise, this is all new.